All the pain is gone

Did I ever feel emptiness?

Did I ever feel infinite sadness?

Did I ever feel a hole in my soul with your absence?

Did I ever feel wounded to know I wasn't your only love?

Did I ever need you to REALLY show how Big Was Your Love For Me?

Did I ever need you next to me?

Did I ever need to believe you were honest?

Did I ever wish you could feel all this pain to understand it?

Did I ever feel hate every time that you lied to my face, my eyes, my thoughts, my dreams and fears?

Did I ever feel betrayed by you?


"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will certainly be wrung and probably be broken.

If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the conffin or casket of your selfishness.

But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless-- it will change. It will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable... The only place outside heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is hell."


C.S. Lewis